hanggang ngayon, ilang linggo na ang nakalipas, naluluha pa rin ako pag nakakarinig ako ng kanta ni mj. tapos naiiyak (as in iyak kung iyak) pa rin ako pag napapanood ko concert nya at mga tribute sa kanya. lalo na yung memorial nya.

i never thought i'd get this affected. tsss.

michael, ahlahvyuuuw!

33 weeks ago daw akong nagpost ng entry. sabagay, nasa monte pa ko nung huli akong nag-update. pero teka, nasa monte din naman ako ngayon. yun nga lang, bisita lang. haha. siyet, masyado na bang late para bumati ng merry christmas at happy new year? hindi pa naman  lagpas isang buwan. babawi na lang ako, advanced happy valentines. mwahahaha.

mga taga-arking fifth year, balita ko malapit na delibs nyo. gudlak! may the force be with you.sa mga taga-arking hindi nagti-thesis, dadating din kayo jan. hahaha!

syet. nag-update lang ako kasi wala lang. 33 weeks na daw akong hindi nag-a-update. kaya nag-update ako. para hindi na 33 weeks. yehey! kakain na ulit ako! sa mga may utang na inom sakin jan, pagkain na lang kasi di ako umiinom. yung mga may utang sakin ng lunch/dinner out, kain na tayo! sa mga walang utang sakin na kahit ano, kain tayo. hahaha.

feeling: sleepy

yezz. i'm twenty.

thank yous go to the people who greeted. more thank yous to the people who made the day (very) special. indeed a very different birthday for me. it's so different i almost freaked out. hahaha. just kidding. it began (right on the dot) with a blast, ended with a blast. ahjazlahvet. i love my friends.

dateezeet. maraming, maraming salamat. ;p

no matter what happens later today, this'll be the best birthday ever. so far. surely one i will never ever forget. i did get surprised, didn't i? first time! hahaha.

so i'm not gonna wait until the day finishes to thank the people who (miraculously) were able to take my bad vibes away. ima do this chronologically.

first, anja. perfect timing, what can i say. i would've completely snapped if you hadn't called me and taken me out. and thank you for the low fat(?) lychee jelly. hahaha. ees gooooood. see you in a few hours, eh?

then. mara, jr, ekang and dred who went through all the troubles to get me banoffee pies (with candles!) and caramel macchiato, and wait til 12 outside my house. haha. i don't even know how to put into words what i feel. seriously. i'm so touched i'm almost harassed. ahahaha! but the point is, a million thank yous aren't enough. i'm grateful to the heavens you are my friends. and couldn't think of better people to welcome the big two-oh with. i wouldn't want it any other way, actually.

so yeah. just so you know. if i ever snap today, or if i go crazy or get extremely bv or whatever, this will still be the best. right. ahlahvet. you guys rock my socks. ;p

feeling: surprised

overheard: what can i do? i love eh... (dramatic pause) ...i love. (i was waiting for one of them to say: AHLAHK PAH! wahahaha!)

MWAHAHA! isa pa: lagi mong kasam yung friends nya. what about your friends? what happened to YOU?

HAHAHA! that's why i loooove sitting alone in coffee shops (anywhere, actually). you can get so much insight! i swear i was grinning almost all the time. too bad they dropped the conversation on LOVE before it even got to the good part. BOO.

ahlahvet.

i can't write anything to save my life. frustratiiiiing. i hate this. ugh.

feeling: frustrated

ANG SAKIT NG PUSON KO!!!!

gyaaaaah. tortuuuure.

i suddenly wanna watch Popular. i never really got to finish that show. hahaha. i miss sam, brooke, josh, carmen, lily, nicole, that fat guy (forgot his name), that blonde girl (also forgot her name), and harrison (or something).

ahahaha.  i used to wait for that show every tuesday on studio 23. guilty pleasure. nyak nyak nyak.

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LiveJournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

1. imogen heap/jeff buckley/rufus wainwright - hallelujah (lss! gyaaah)
2. imago - sundo
3. tori amos - winter
4. agent sparks - polly anne
5. anna nalick - breathe (2am)
6. bell x1 - eve, the apple of my eye
7. smashing pumpkins - tonight, tonight

hahahaha.

i know i haven't been easy to deal with the last couple of days, but i want to thank the people who made (make) me smile (and laugh). and also those who try to understand.

i ♥ you.

"Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm."

HA. HA. HA.

tignan nyo yung ginawa ng kuya ko! ang cute. :D

click!

feeling: amused

yehey! sorry alam kong mababaw at walang kwenta, pero. may internet na ako sa kwarto! yaheynessss! aylavit, aylavit, aylavit!

BWAHAHAHA! mabuhay ang tarsier! ;p

feeling: ecstatic

woah. kakagising ko lang. ang saya saya ng rockestra. sobrang enjoy (except sa hale part nag-space out na ako habang hinihintay matapos sila hahahaha). yehey! at may rockestra shirt ako!

thank God for true friends. the people i was with last night are the best. yehey! ahlahvyuuuu, friends!


pichurs!

imago = heart. kahit na isang chorus lang ang naabutan namin, ayus lang. masaya pa rin. may upgraded bonding sessions naman. hahaha. at kahit na apat na oras lang ang tulog ko dahil five ng umaga na ako natulog (dahil kamusta naman yun), ayos lang. masaya pa rin.

PERO. gusto kong manood ng rockestraaaa. booooo. pero parang.... ayos lang.

kamusta naman ang mga trip natin jan.


iiwasan ko nang bumabad sa alaala
ng mga nang iwan
at patuloy kong kinakapitan

nakakapagod ang interview. sobraaaa. kaya di na kaya ng powers ko magkwento. at, dahil sobrang napagod ako sa interbiew at apat na araw na akong hindi kumakain ng totoong pagkain (puro fishball o kaya skyflakes lang), naisipan kong bumili ng 1 pc. chicken mcdo meal. akala ko naman keri lang. but no. wala pang kalahati ang nababawas sa kanin at manok, ayoko na. ngayon, ma-iisang oras nang nasa harap ko ang pagkain. at masusuka na yata ako. hahaha.

lagi ba akong nakasimangot? at hindi ba maintindihan ang mga sinasabi ko? baka mamaya akala ko nagsasalita ako ng matino pero tongues na pala yung naririnig nyo. hahaha!

ang saya saya ng interview. ang galing ng apps! yehey!

ah! at meron na akong multiply. hahaha. yehey!

feeling: full

shoes i want from (puma):

any of the future cat series, preferably the red one though.
sf future cat gt!
ballistic
speed cat series
250
xc ii
another numostro (just because)
another h. street
metro
shuttle mid
k-1
talon


woah. that's a lot. now, now. where to get the money to buy all that? at puma pa lang yan (at pinaka-gusto ko lang yan). pano pa pag may nike at adidas at diesel at lacoste na? at converse? e sa chucks pa lang sobrang dami na nun. yung brazil na chucks na green at yellow (malamang, doy)! aaaah! ang ganda ganda nun!

at rubber shoes pa lang yang mga yan. ano na ang flip flops at mga hindi masyadong rubber shoes at moccasins? gyaaaah!

kaya kailangan kong yumaman! para makabili ng sangkaterbang sapatos! BWAHAHAHA!

sira ang video card ng pc ko! anak ng butete! NOOOOOOO. broke pa naman akoooooo. ugh.

feeling: pissed off

back from the sunny sunny bohol. two things:

1. i'm toasted. my face, shoulders and back are burning.




2. i don't want a raccoon anymore. i want a tarsier!!







hankyuuuuut!



okay. tama na ang bakasyon. back to work. natuwa naman ako sa welcome back ko. nakita ko lahat ng mga gusto kong makita. :D

feeling: toasted

dear lord,

palabasin nyo naman ang araw next week. kahit tuesday hanggang saturday lang. kahit hindi na monday at sunday. wahehehe. para naman masulit ang pag-absent this time. nyak nyak nyak. tapos pagkatapos nun di na ko magka-cut. wahahaha. pramis. :D

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nafi-freak out ako sa mga pichurs ng topless na mga lalaki na wala namang abs at di maganda ang hugis. ang scary. yaaaak.

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at in fairness nag-enjoy naman ako sa 171 kanina. sino ba naman ang mag-aakala na matutuwa akong panooring sinisira ang mga pinaghirapan naming beams at columns ng isang buwan? whew. ang saya saya! at napaka-emotional. hahaha. ang cute ni sir ramirez!

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mag-aaral na ba ako?

feeling: weird